Friday, August 29, 2014

What if there was something

What if there was something between us and our stubbornness prevents us from discovering it. What if there was more than what we know is real. I ask my self this questions while you dive into your life alone and alone. What if I am better off with this toxic love. Would I ever know? I don't know. I don't think so. There is no way we will ever know the answer in this life time. We are so similar in our stubborn ways and it scares me to see all my junk projected on you.

What if you were the one for me and I was for you. It would be nice to know all this things, but that would be too easy of a life. I am can not ask for the impossible. I am at peace with us, but at times I get confused again just as confused as I was when were together. Would I ever know if you are the one for me and I am the one for you? I hope not because the process of getting close to you is way to complicated for me. I just ask myself those questions because there is some love left that I won't be able to let go of.

What if there was more to between us? It would suck to to find this answers just before I die. I feel like this is what we are doing. We are avoiding the idea of us because we are so afraid of being together that that we rather be moderately happy alone. What an incredible duo of miserable lovers that pretend to be better off separete.

What if we die tomorrow?...

Wednesday, August 27, 2014


I go about my life finding egos that are so different from my own
I encounter big egos small ones and hidden ones
It feels as if the only reason why I am finding them is to let go of my ego

I have been able to let it fly away from me 
It feels amazing not to have to deal with my other self anymore
I still encounter that old self once in a blue moon but it is rare now

I go about life finding new opportunities that I once ignored 
I can make a fool of myself everyday and it feels great
More and more I can say that my purpose in life has been discovered

I have been able to discover what completes my soul
It might sound cheesy, but my purpose is to help others let go 
I am letting go of my egos that come in may shapes and sizes

Egos that can blind fold us through life and make us believe our own lies 

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Marriage advice for women

I wish I could predict the future so you didn't have to go through this pain. 

I was happy for you and sad because I knew that everything was going to be very different from this point on. I knew you were going to become a Ms. and that your Friday nights were going to be just like any other night except for the wine. I didn't want you to suffer or to experience what you already have. I wish I was a married older woman that could have given you good advice on what to do when things are hard. Unfortunately for both of us, I am a single 29 year old woman with a dog that recently broke up with her ex-boyfriend that was afraid of commitment. I am very ignorant in the subject of marriage because I have never been married and I have no desire to do it any time soon. 

All I can tell you is that when it comes to marriage, nobody will know your relationship better than you so this will make you the only person capable of making an educated decision. Separation sound worst than what it actually is. Before, I had a negative prospective about divorce or separation because I was reaised catholic I guess. Now I know the positive side of it and I am sure you know it too. 

Life goes on with or without you. I am proud you chose to carry on and to continue with your life regardless of your relationship status. The most important relationship in your life should be the relationship you have with God and not the one you have with your partner. I am glad you already know that. I admire your ability to not fool yourself and your honesty. I am learning from you and I know you have learned from me too. I was a bit worried about you a year ago, but my optimism kept telling me that you were going to be fine. You are fine. 

Your decission tells me that you love, respect and accept yourself for who you really are. I wish I could have predicted the future, but in a way I am glad I didn't. Life is a learning experience and God has a plan for you that might feel scary right now, but trust Him it will be wonderful. I know that you are stronger than me and you take way more risks than I do. I admire that about you and never under estimate your strenght because you are my hero in a lot of ways. 

I wish I knew more about marrige, but at least I know how to be a friend and I will be here for you. 

There is no better love story

And I talk and I talk and I talk about us

We are not even a love story
 It seems as if we are that one great couple
And I talk about us while you avoid me
When you watch basketball with your dad
You think I am so madly in love with you
And I am
But trust me you are not all that
Only when you smile
My words rhyme when I talk about you
And I sing love songs when you kiss me
If I had the opportunity to show you how beautiful it is to be madly in love with you
Would you believe me?

And talk about us like there is no better love story

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Life is...

Life is what you give to the world
Everybody gets what they deserve
I am happy with what I have created for me
Life is what you give to the world
I deserve what I have right now and nothing more
I am happy with my outcomes even when they hurt

Life is good, because I am living the dream
Gotta have 3 roommates to make rent on time

Go to college, find a job they said.
Living the dream every day!

Life is what you give to the world
Everybody gets what they deserve
I am happy with what I have created for me
Life is what you give to the world
I deserve what I have right now and nothing more
I am happy with my outcomes even when they suck

Creating things that most people don’t get
Living the California dream to the core with lots of obstacles
Dedication should be my last name
I would rather create things than watching life pass by

Life is what you want it to be

Más allá de ti

Más allá de ti no hay nada que amar, amor constante,
amor discreto que amas con tus ojos y alejas con tus labios.

Más allá de ti existe un futuro verdadero, amor errado,
amor sincero que me huyes y me amas y te acercas de la nada.

Muchas veces he intentado amar como te amo sin ningún éxito;
solo tú y dios saben bien que es lo que siento.

Amor lejano que me alejas con el viento; te encontre un invierno pero
para el verano ya nos estabamos despidiendo y así cada invierno nos vemos.

Más allá de ti no hay amor, pero si hay felicidad.

What am I doing here?

You are here for to honor God.
But it doesn't seem fun?
It wasn't supposed to be fun.
I thought I was here to be happy doing what I want to do?
You have been told that since Genesis chapter 1, but it's wrong.
I think that life is about me and my desires. 
I know you want life to be about you, but it's not about you.
What is it about then?
It is about your relationship with God and his plan for you.
What plan?
He brought you here for a purpose.
What is the purpose?
Your life purpose is to serve, to love and to honor God's will.
I can do that, but what about how I feel. 
It is irrelevant because if you honor God your heart will be full of joy.
How can I do that?
The best way to honor God as a human is to walk with Jesus.
I believe in Jesus so I am cool. 
Believing in him is not enough. You have to act and think like him.
I can't do that he was such an amazing person and he was chosen by God. 
We were created to resemble God and we are amazing too.
I never thought about that. 
Honor God while walking with Jesus is not going to be easy, but it will be worth it.